Written at some point back in April. It started with me going back home to spend vacation with my family. It was to celebrate my mother’s 60th birthday and retirement. I only managed to spend a couple weeks because I encountered a few bumps a week prior. Only 2 weeks and then I had to… Continue reading Midlife Crisis
I came across a YouTube short by someone who says that people are just undisciplined, not tired. I let it play over and over again, trying to understand what this person was trying to say, while I rot in bed absolutely exhausted from the past 2 days that I was working 12-hour shifts. I used… Continue reading Burned Out
Ever been so obsessed with someone who is fictional or might be real but doesn’t know who you are – like a celebrity? There might be a lot of people who will say yes to this. There are some who would deny it but it’s actually true. I know. I’ve seen this kind, and I… Continue reading Parasocialism
Offline, I’m constantly daydreaming. At home doing chores, lying in bed, at work typing out what I’ve done for my clients. It’s not just normal daydreaming like wanting to go to other places, meeting other people or simple things. No. I actually have full-blown stories running through my mind. It is either fantasizing about impossible… Continue reading Maladaptive Daydreaming
Ends by dawn, starts again by dusk. More days like this and she just might combust. She is always awake at night, questioning her sanity And thinking of different ways to ease her anxiety. When she arrives at work, she proceeds to the computer Not to check if it functions, no. She’s not that much… Continue reading A Nurse’s Anxiety (inc) | June 19, 2020
I was happy for the past two months, energetic even, buy it’s beginning to wear down, and I’m slowly going back to my old dark cave again.
I turned 23 years old yesterday and you know how I spent my birthday? I was at a city 50 kilometers away from home the whole afternoon just to renew my license ID. I didn’t expect the line to be that long and the process actually only took an hour out of the almost 5… Continue reading A Year Older | 23
I woke up feeling a little off, and as day progressed to night, and while I prepared for my night shift as a staff nurse, it got worse. My ascension on the stairs to the station where I was assigned was getting slower every second, and I was beginning to feel discomfort in my chest.… Continue reading Anxiety
So I published my previous post on October 10th, which I didn’t know was World Mental Health Day. I haven’t seen a professional yet, but I wanted to to be aware of what my current mental status is. I would just like to say to people who are clinically diagnosed, and also to those who… Continue reading Week 4.2 | Mental Health Awareness | Writing Challenge
Internal Monologues 