Offline, I’m constantly daydreaming. At home doing chores, lying in bed, at work typing out what I’ve done for my clients.

It’s not just normal daydreaming like wanting to go to other places, meeting other people or simple things.

No.

I actually have full-blown stories running through my mind. It is either fantasizing about impossible things in real life or fanfictions of my favorite shows.

Like accidentally meeting a famous person and becoming friends with them, or if Severus Snape was a secret rockstar. All while I’m listening to music.

The worst thing about it is that I would mindlessly act out some dialogue and would only realize when my sister comes in, catches me in the act and points out to me that I’m mumbling, and it will just send me back to earth and make me wish the ground could swallow me whole.

I constantly lose focus because of my brain’s inability to shut up but I can’t help mindlessly wandering into fantasyland where everything is perfect, opposite to what I feel at the moment.

It may be dissociation from reality, but it had brought me more joy than most things in real life couldn’t give me.