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Mixed Feelings

Hi! I’m finally able to update this blog after two months of inactivity.

I am actually writing this as I’m listening to classmates volunteering for the Speaking class for IELTS whilst I’ve only joined in on the first question. Sorry, Ma’am Olet!

I just want to share that I’ve actually made a new friend, and two other workmates, she and I made our own friend group after just a single night shift duty together, where we bonded over horror movie we watched while there weren’t patients coming in. And just like that, they became my best friends.We immediately clicked, and we were able to share so many things without any hesitations and judgment.

During the couple shifts that we were together, I was ecstatic. No matter how toxic the patients were, it didn’t feel like it because I was with them. And then, our workmate received news that they were scheduled for a facility interview and final interview at the embassy, so that was the end of our time together at the same workplace.

Our circle hasn’t even reached a month yet when we already went to a short road trip together: visiting Strawberry Guyabano Farm in the morning, having lunch at a steakhouse 40 miles away from our workplace, and spending the whole afternoon at a resort back in our hometown.

However, that road trip was only made possible because one of us will be leaving the country to work abroad in a few months time. We couldn’t insert the little get-together in our next schedules because we don’t have any matching days off, so the only available day for all of us was just a few days after a concrete plan was starting to form.

When I learned about them resigning from another workmate outside of our circle, I was shocked. And a few hours after I got home from work, I cried. It just came out.

Because out of all the people I’ve met in my almost five years working at the hospital, they were one of the few whom I’ve gotten so much close with, and one of those who kept me sane throughout the crazy times I’ve have at work, and just the thought of them leaving saddened me.

But don’t get me wrong though: I am so proud of them for achieving this point in their life, as they’ve been waiting for this day to come for forever. And after all the struggles they’d encountered their entire life, they’re finally a step closer to their dreams.

We’ve been planning to have another get-together before they leave, though. I hope that they’d still be able to come, and our group will still continue to communicate even if we’re thousands of miles away from each other.

It has only been a short while with them as a close knit of friends where we are able to interact with them face-to-face, but those times with them are definitely a few of the top of my highlights this year and my entire time at the hospital.

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