Yesterday afternoon, I decided to draw (Thomas Sanders, yo. Check him out on YT.) but after so many attempts of doing a rough outline, I immediately stopped trying because eh, if I can’t do it well, I’m not going to do it.

And besides, I’ve got writing and reading to do, so I left my sketch pad and went on here to write… well, after eating a tin of cookies and reading dumb articles posted on Facebook.

So I’ve been in a constant struggle among writing, drawing, reading, playing the uke/guitar/piano and just surfing the internet and guess what always comes on top?

Yep. Surfing the damn internet.

It’s because I have no idea, motivation, source of inspiration whatsoever that I just want to curl up in a ball and wanted to do something with my hands and that’s why being of the phone is satisfactory for me (but doing it all the time is somehow self-degrading because I SHOULD be doing something other than that).

Before I started writing this post, I was actually practice playing the ukulele and searching for songs for beginners but then, the songs I found included chords that were hard to do so 50 4-chord songs later, I quit. As I’m typing right now, I glance at the musical instrument on my bed waiting to be played (not tonight, sorry).

If you, dear reader, have so many things that you want to do but can’t because of lack of motivation and ideas, don’t worry. You could always look around you for one but if you don’t find it, time will come that your block will leave you and you could do whatever you wanted to do.

PS. This is a pointless post why did I do this?